I'm sick

I'am the supporter of free press. I believe that the people should be given the privileged to know the truth, not the story that has been fabricated by the government. Problem is, free press sometimes is too liberating until it's become less trustable. But the point is clear "let the people know the true story, and leave the judgement to them".

probably the most liberal, non-racist newspaper in Malaysia

In Malaysia, press freedom is only a myth. If you're writing to condemn government, the price you got to pay is very large. This is why the Malaysia government is like a saint; very perfect in all aspect. They're like Messiah, come as a savior to the humanity.

My first Love !! At last!!

I'am now with this bitch for about 3 month now..she's kinda cute, sporty, easy going and very funky...This is the same that hurt me before, but my passion and love towards her would never be suppressed by anything she did..Call me jerk now, u asshole..at least i got someone to love, although she seems like don't give a fuck to me and persistently make me suffer everyday by hurting me mentally and physically.

I would play her every evening..I ride her and doing a lot of position. Everyday I would think a new one to entertain myself as well as her. I talk to her, but to no avail, she doesn't reply anything. Maybe she's still not accepting me. Nevertheless, time will heal. It's all will be ok as time pass by, I uttered to myself.

I once love her so much that I even broke my right arm to show that I'm the greatest. Fuck you for making me suffer 3 month. I decided to forsake her but when I'm 18, I met her again in my college. Owhh it wasn't a coincidence, it's a destiny . There was no hatred, vengeance, but only a feeling of wanting to continue this pain relationship.

Look bitch, I tolong u make up bagi lawa...now don't disappoint me, please land my kickflip and ollie perfectly..I've wasted a lot of government and parents money on you

Loser is good

Reading back all my previous post, I must say that it full with hatred, pessimist, demotivation and not pleasing to read. That's reflect my life;A life of a loser, faggot and low self-esteem.

Realizing that a happy ending is better than sad, this post will be in "cheerful" mode..

I'am very happy..that's because..ohhh wait damn fuck i can't recall when was the last time I was happy...
shit..a loser is always a loser..my life is only a joke.

The violation of human rights in Matriculation

After a long time keeping this entry in my draft folder, I hereby decided to make it public. I should post it earlier, but the time constraint is inevitable. I constantly editing this entry from time to time to ensure it's the best i can do.
There's a lot of things interfering with my mind right now,which worsen my already messed up mind.

I'm really depressed,despair, lost hope and faith in my study. It's true,as claim by the others, that life in matriculation isn't easy. I aware of this before making my path here, but the difficulties is far more worst than i had expected. Although my SPM result seem to be better than the rest of students here,they PWNED my ass by scoring in each subject while leaving me with my fucked up results.


So,whatever happen,i will continue to face all the fuck,bad or nice thing happen to me. Right now I'm living like a lost soul. Everyday I wake up, going to kuliah just to sit and listen to the things that I don't even get it or have the intuitive. Tutor class is just adding more pain to me as the thing explain by the teacher should've already understood by the student, but i play the game by "learn everything through tutor" which doesn't go well as the teachers are rushing to finish up the syllabus and my sluggishness to catch up will end up losing the whole game. My fucked up subject is "math"..i don't get it why most of the people here are good in math?damn it i thought i can focus more on math after leaving Biology,but seems like i failed to execute that.

Dancing and skating are the new sport that i found very interesting and im really serious into it. Life here is totally different compared to the life that I used to live. I used to only sleeping at evening but now,i play skateboard with some mate. It's an exciting activity to do but now,i've seen the effect;i become tired at night(which is the time i would studying) and this really affect my performance.

Being a loser dickhead,i still have no girl to understand and care for me.18 years of being single is damn pain. damn it im not that desperate! For all this while,i just wait for the love to come, and never try to find one. Again, im not that desperate and can even live without it..i've seen a lot of bitches n cunt posting lame fb status because they've been cheated by their so called "lover"(go fuck yourself please)..
Ohhh wait! Im not a fucking gay for your mama sake ! I still fap to sexy,beautiful bitch you could find on the net,not the big,black nikka cock!i only suck in relationship..


You know kids,
dancing and skateboarding are two activities that keep me alive. I've always loss desire to continue living here but these activities really give me hope. I also lost interest to pursue studying in any mathematics-related field and this include my dream course(computer science)goshh i dream this for all this while...owhh is there any course that is less math,a bit physic and chemistry is ok,consist of a bit about economy,finance and the most important part is "it would secure my employment"?...i doubt there is any..the world is so cruel for me..

difficult but certain choice

The upu results was out and unprecedentedly,i got Tesl foundation in UiTM.As i remember,i was doing pretty bad during the interview..still got it??

No,of course i don't want that..being an Englishman with an eloquence and poetry word but end up being a teacher or lecturer??haiz..that's terrible mang..teaching is not what I'm for..

I had to turn down that offer and opt for matrik instead and pursue my degree in Computer Science;majoring in either network or software engineering.

That's my dream since i was a child.

And that's dream that lead me to where I'am now.

Of course,i had heard a lot of rumor that the field that i'm getting to has been taken by a lot of people and most of them remain unemployed until now..
my say;BULLSHIT

I'm aware that i might face difficulties obtaining a job after my graduation.
but it's not something to be worry at time being.
my interest in computer is more than just getting a job.


regards,
Megat

I'm alive

Just want to tell you taht I'm fucking alive but lazy to update my blog...
No,I've a lot of time but my brain seems like draining of idea....Can't fucking write well anymore....

moreover,no one read my blog..so what's the point writing without reader huh???


regards
Jimskin

Some say it's a boring,damn life...But I have a different view

SPM was finished 2 month ago,and I've planned a lot of things rather than just staying at home,doing absolutely nothing.So,this is my life now,doing nothing,being a burden to both my parents,worrying about the SPM result which I knew would not be so good.Only can be admitted into some cheap,junk private college which I don't think my parents could afford it.

Working is my priority.I want to gain some experience and $$$ of course.But I'm too choosy,which make me unemployed until now.

I also want to take "Mandarin" class as many employer nowadays emphasizes on it.Speaking more than 2 language is an added advantage.I could learn it for free on the internet,but Dota has restricted me to do so.

Everyday,when I read the newspaper,I'll turn to the "obituary" section.

You must be wondering why the fuck I read that right??Hmm..I just trying my luck,maybe a rich philanthropist has died and he want's to donate all his properties
to the lucky person....who know??hahaha....lame,shame...

Then,I check my mail to see any paid ads,which will earn me $0.01 for each click.I need to click 1000 mail to request the minimum payout,which is $10.Usually,I receive 1-2 ads per day.When will I get my $10??hahaha....

I practice Dota a lot,but I'm still a noob.I hope to enter any tournament and earn some $$$$...However,it failed to amuse me....arghhhh

I try some translation job,but still no reply.

I sent a resume for a computer technician job,but maybe packet data loss make my mail can't be received.

I login into my facebook,and play Mafiawar which I'm addicted now.I used to block my friend because annoy with the Mafiawar update and messing my profile.

But now,I digging deep into his profile,looking for any bonus or anything that can be used to boost my Mafia.

I'm happy to see a lot of money in my Mafiawar bank,but quite sad when looking at my wallet.

I love my life,although some of you call it shame.This is me,and I don't have to bother about what you think.