Of all the odds and suffering

Fucking Matriculation programme, the hell of 1 years of suffering, come to finish with a catastrophic ending.
If you're my loyal follower of this stupid, inferior and scientifically uninteresting blog, you will no doubt have idea why I say it's a hell version of this universe. No, I'm not making comparison to the neraka jahanam, but it's a metaphor of what I've been through.

So, managed to find a job, the first was at Takoyaki stall, owned by my ex-classmates back when I was at MRSM. It's a new experience, I learn how to make Takoyaki, a Japanese food version of Malay's cekodok in my opinion.

and while I got excited of it, some things are meant to not pleasing me. The place I worked; took 1 hour drive from my home and imagine I've to get up on 7am after month of adjusting my biological clock to get up at 1pm(in some cases more later).
That's not the worst part; my 2 days work was paid RM 22. Yes, 26 hours worth of workforce excluding my trips.
Actually, I'm quite hesitate to blame him for the small wages, because those 2 days,we are not making much sales. If not mistaken, the combined sales for the 2 days was only RM 60. Minus 22 for me, and that's not including the raw material yet to make that snack. And did I say the rent for that small stall is RM 1500 per month? So basically, they need to make RM 50 for a day to make profit, in which case they don't and instead of making profit, they are losing.
The most funny thing is, my parents came to buy 2 sets of that Takoyaki on my 2nd day of work, and I ask for some money so I could refuel the car and go back.


What is the reason behind this business failure?

I can think of 2 reasons;

1. Not so much of popularity
While sushi had make it name in Malaysia, Takoyaki on the other hand is barely known. The first time I tasted it, it's not very tasty and I don't like it. I'm not sharing the same feeling ; at least from my observations, some people simply thrown away and cannot finish eating it. When my family came, I ask my lil brother how it's taste and an honest answer of 7 years old boy merely said ; tak sedap.
Those people that say sedap, maybe they faked it because you know, this friend of mine invited some of his friends to come over at his stall and they are well, feel obligated to buy, and try and what'd ya expect when he asked how about mah takoyaki?? Sometimes the truth need to be keep hidden, so yeah, very sedap liao

2. Location
One of the most important thing in business, is the location. A strategic location will be at large audience to draw more customer, but another thing that need to be put into attention is the suitability.
Takoyaki I believed, is a rich-people snack and be considered exotic. Like sushi, not everyone eat them frequently on daily basis.
The stall is at Tesco, which served as a heaven for middle to low income group shopping.
Most of the people that come there are family and they go not for the purpose of hangout, but rather to stock their household items. And these people, they have strict discipline in what to get and what not so they don't overspend. So, do you think RM 4.50 per set for 4 pcs is a worth to eat? Some people, like me, they are quite stingy when it comes to food. I'm thinking of suggesting he moves his stall to Jusco Aeon, which is next to Tesco, but then, who I am to advice this "MLM millionaire" wannabe?

How I saved the world ( and your mom)

Kid,( mimicking How I met your mother opening)

Ever since i posses that god demit card called driving license,my life change,at least at this particular instantaneous. Im no longer the one that revolve around machine,where the monitor is the vision of a virtual world. The demography of where Im currently residing limiting me to go out, but with that card, it's seems like the world is too small,and just connected.
And it's allow me to socialize with my fellow skaters, as some of those religious folk will say “merapatkan silaturrahim zahir dan batin antara insaniah jauhari”..I don't do shit all the time, with a car I can easily go to surau(citation needed)
I don't quite remember doing something useful to humanity these few month, but getting a job, hmm that's the least I can do to keep this world running.

What was the term again??merapatkan silaturrahim?maybe i could bang a few malay chicks with this word and complete my mission

Im not an environmentalist, that's why I don't buy all those bullshit campaign to use public transport, car pooling, hybrid car, reusable bitch. Consequently, make me invented a new belief which is “don't give a fuck society”, like the Iceberg at that poles gonna melt and flood this world?? So what?? The only things I care is how to shoot that polar bear if let say in some unprecedented event, it's float off to my house. I don't fucking have rifles, but merely a shortgun. I can't take risk having a penguin as a pet as I have the credibility of “animal killer”, those people at PETA will burn my ass. The only animal I can bear is cat, as it have adorable interface and easy going. Who doesn't love cat after all??

To tell the truth, yes Im not racist: I got white n black on me..which side you're niggerz??

I never feel guilty when I burned a hamster(it's still alive, just a minor damage) because I think it's a matter of faith in human relationship. It's a very complicated philosophy translated into a simple action. I do know they all love that animal, but looking at those creepy hamster suffering in pain, hexx it's a total enjoyment!! Next, what I know is things get creepier ; Im facing with a bunch of rage-hamster-lover...

Dude, only if you could understand what I'm trying to do for the sake of future humanity, you would surely even kiss my ass and start calling me a saviour..

What on earth did an inhuman act could result in future of humanity??
I'm trying to elaborate this complicated philosophy, only if you willing to listen, not with your ears, but your heart..

Picture: A hamster caught red-handed trying to murder a man with a gun..shit all those things were true!!they're alien disguising as a cute, adorable pet. Only if I listened to edward, my mom will still be with me

“Iam human, the so called homo sapience species and so do you. That hamster is just an animal that simply don't contribute to mankind, and only a wasteful resources on this earth. This earth consist of 70% of seawater, and only 30% is land, but the percentage that is liveable, I believe would be much lower. What if we could eliminate all noncontributing animal to increase our space, as well as resources?? Let's say I kill 150 hamster, and that's equal to a resource a human would use throughout his life. We could born another Einstein to save the world!!Isn't that genius?

All heil your savior!!”

No shit, I'm screwed...Being alone make me did unimaginable things

What I've learned in Skateboarding

I learned a lot in skateboarding for the past 5 month than I did in Mathematic, Physic and Chemistry. It maybe a small,tiny board but it has grown big inside my heart. What I learned is not limited to ollie, kickflip, shuv it(n others skateboard skills), but something that I called as "passive learning". These things is obtained unintentionally in my quest to become a pro skater(I wouldn't be that, I have my own ambition). This is what I think of skateboarding; it's all traced back to my life as the world is revolving around me

As I stand on that board, It wasn't easy for the first time. Nevertheless, it is a baby step that someday become a giant leap. Conquering the fear and balancing your body is vital to make yourself stand on that board perfectly. In real life, this is us, a baby just being born. We don't know anything except crying. As we grow, we started to crawl and eventually, learn to stand and walking. Often, we fall and our parents would help us to rise. Parents is portrayed as mates that always there to give support and motivation throughout the whole journey.

Eventually, the fear is conquered and you can roll the skateboard forward. But still, it's just a beginning of something bigger. As you roll forward, there are some obstacle that impossible to pass through. This is where you hop over it and continue the journey. But there is one problem ; how to make that board fly high enough to pass the obstacle? make it jump with you

In skateboarding, jumping with the board is called "ollie". Frankly speaking, it is a pain in the ass to learn. You won't learn it in one day ; maybe a week or month!!

Then there you're, stuck behind the obstacle to learn "ollie". In real life, we faced a lot of problems that seem very difficult to us. As long as you don't face it, you won't go anywhere. You may evade it, but the upcoming obstacle will be much more difficult for you.

You may ignore your debt's payment and spend the money on something else, but how long can it be? Or you pretending something didn't happen in your relationship but the truth is you're suffering, well what if you broke down someday?Isn't that would cause a big catastrophe?

this is ollie for those who wondering..

Done with ollie, you now a hero to yourself and your mate. But the peer pressure is irresistible. Turn out that ollie is too common. Some of your pro friends can make kickflip over the obstacle.

And now, to do the ollie alone is hard, but how could you make the board jump with you and at the same time flick 360?

The pain in the ass process of learning to kickflip begin.

We always want to be better than our peer. The feeling of envying is always present whenever we see someone who can perform well in whatever they're doing. Fortunately, this feeling evolve into a motivation for us to do our best. But the world is not always fair. Some may easily give up or worse, their jealousy turn to hatred. And soon, they may do something like ignoring you or sabotaging your career.

The kickflip (originally magic flip) is a skateboarding flip trick where the skater flicks his/her front foot at an angle toward the nose of the skateboard in order to make it flip 360 degrees along the board's axis

And I have no idea..done with my nonsense post

Fuck the book

saat ni aku sgt kecewa dan gembira pada masa yg sama...

aku dulu adlh seorang yg hanya tau life dpn internet, tp sjk kebelakangan ni tu sumer dh b'ubah.

aku slalu ingat yg aku ni akan jd org yg no life, duk dpn internet je 24h..sekuranggnya tidak lagi sekarang..

dunia skateboarding ajar aku banyak benda..ajar aku supaya tidak mudah putus asa, bangkit setelah jatuh dan juga menghabiskan duit : ) ...

katalis kepada kebencian aku t'hadap facebook bermula sejak program Score A berkembang pesat melalui facebook..kawan2 yg aku anggap mmbr, kini dh jd moron akibat gelap mata nak kaya.akibatnya, facebook menjadi medan niaga ejen mencari mangsa...benci gila ngan facebook skrg..

namun, tiba2 pada hari ini aku baru terperasan sesuatu..org yg aku ingatkan member tlh delete ak dr member list dia...wtf??jadi selama ini kau berpura-pura sahajalah??..ahhh lantak la...aku sentiasa menghargai kawan,cuma org x nak hargai aku..tp dgn menceburi bidang skateboarding, aku berjumpa semangat brotherhood dan kekawanan yg sebenarnya...org yg kau org kate sampah masyarakat, annoying tu la member aku..at least lg baik dri mat rempit kan??jgn la pandang hina skateboarder..fuck u society....

at least tgn kanan aku ni pernah salam ngan pro skater, itu adalah inspirasi aku...overnight di skatepark ngan pro skater adalh sesuatu yg x kan dilupakan...

aku akan buka facebook tuk contact member2 skater n yg ak rasa tak moron sje...tuk jd attention whore ngan status update tah2 apa lantak korang la...

I'm sick

I'am the supporter of free press. I believe that the people should be given the privileged to know the truth, not the story that has been fabricated by the government. Problem is, free press sometimes is too liberating until it's become less trustable. But the point is clear "let the people know the true story, and leave the judgement to them".

probably the most liberal, non-racist newspaper in Malaysia

In Malaysia, press freedom is only a myth. If you're writing to condemn government, the price you got to pay is very large. This is why the Malaysia government is like a saint; very perfect in all aspect. They're like Messiah, come as a savior to the humanity.

My first Love !! At last!!

I'am now with this bitch for about 3 month now..she's kinda cute, sporty, easy going and very funky...This is the same that hurt me before, but my passion and love towards her would never be suppressed by anything she did..Call me jerk now, u asshole..at least i got someone to love, although she seems like don't give a fuck to me and persistently make me suffer everyday by hurting me mentally and physically.

I would play her every evening..I ride her and doing a lot of position. Everyday I would think a new one to entertain myself as well as her. I talk to her, but to no avail, she doesn't reply anything. Maybe she's still not accepting me. Nevertheless, time will heal. It's all will be ok as time pass by, I uttered to myself.

I once love her so much that I even broke my right arm to show that I'm the greatest. Fuck you for making me suffer 3 month. I decided to forsake her but when I'm 18, I met her again in my college. Owhh it wasn't a coincidence, it's a destiny . There was no hatred, vengeance, but only a feeling of wanting to continue this pain relationship.

Look bitch, I tolong u make up bagi lawa...now don't disappoint me, please land my kickflip and ollie perfectly..I've wasted a lot of government and parents money on you

Loser is good

Reading back all my previous post, I must say that it full with hatred, pessimist, demotivation and not pleasing to read. That's reflect my life;A life of a loser, faggot and low self-esteem.

Realizing that a happy ending is better than sad, this post will be in "cheerful" mode..

I'am very happy..that's because..ohhh wait damn fuck i can't recall when was the last time I was happy...
shit..a loser is always a loser..my life is only a joke.