Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
I would play her every evening..I ride her and doing a lot of position. Everyday I would think a new one to entertain myself as well as her. I talk to her, but to no avail, she doesn't reply anything. Maybe she's still not accepting me. Nevertheless, time will heal. It's all will be ok as time pass by, I uttered to myself.
I once love her so much that I even broke my right arm to show that I'm the greatest. Fuck you for making me suffer 3 month. I decided to forsake her but when I'm 18, I met her again in my college. Owhh it wasn't a coincidence, it's a destiny . There was no hatred, vengeance, but only a feeling of wanting to continue this pain relationship.
Look bitch, I tolong u make up bagi lawa...now don't disappoint me, please land my kickflip and ollie perfectly..I've wasted a lot of government and parents money on you
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Realizing that a happy ending is better than sad, this post will be in "cheerful" mode..
I'am very happy..that's because..ohhh wait damn fuck i can't recall when was the last time I was happy...
shit..a loser is always a loser..my life is only a joke.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
There's a lot of things interfering with my mind right now,which worsen my already messed up mind.
I'm really depressed,despair, lost hope and faith in my study. It's true,as claim by the others, that life in matriculation isn't easy. I aware of this before making my path here, but the difficulties is far more worst than i had expected. Although my SPM result seem to be better than the rest of students here,they PWNED my ass by scoring in each subject while leaving me with my fucked up results.
So,whatever happen,i will continue to face all the fuck,bad or nice thing happen to me. Right now I'm living like a lost soul. Everyday I wake up, going to kuliah just to sit and listen to the things that I don't even get it or have the intuitive. Tutor class is just adding more pain to me as the thing explain by the teacher should've already understood by the student, but i play the game by "learn everything through tutor" which doesn't go well as the teachers are rushing to finish up the syllabus and my sluggishness to catch up will end up losing the whole game. My fucked up subject is "math"..i don't get it why most of the people here are good in math?damn it i thought i can focus more on math after leaving Biology,but seems like i failed to execute that.
Dancing and skating are the new sport that i found very interesting and im really serious into it. Life here is totally different compared to the life that I used to live. I used to only sleeping at evening but now,i play skateboard with some mate. It's an exciting activity to do but now,i've seen the effect;i become tired at night(which is the time i would studying) and this really affect my performance.
Being a loser dickhead,i still have no girl to understand and care for me.18 years of being single is damn pain. damn it im not that desperate! For all this while,i just wait for the love to come, and never try to find one. Again, im not that desperate and can even live without it..i've seen a lot of bitches n cunt posting lame fb status because they've been cheated by their so called "lover"(go fuck yourself please)..
Ohhh wait! Im not a fucking gay for your mama sake ! I still fap to sexy,beautiful bitch you could find on the net,not the big,black nikka cock!i only suck in relationship..
You know kids,
dancing and skateboarding are two activities that keep me alive. I've always loss desire to continue living here but these activities really give me hope. I also lost interest to pursue studying in any mathematics-related field and this include my dream course(computer science)goshh i dream this for all this while...owhh is there any course that is less math,a bit physic and chemistry is ok,consist of a bit about economy,finance and the most important part is "it would secure my employment"?...i doubt there is any..the world is so cruel for me..
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
No,of course i don't want that..being an Englishman with an eloquence and poetry word but end up being a teacher or lecturer??haiz..that's terrible mang..teaching is not what I'm for..
I had to turn down that offer and opt for matrik instead and pursue my degree in Computer Science;majoring in either network or software engineering.
That's my dream since i was a child.
And that's dream that lead me to where I'am now.
Of course,i had heard a lot of rumor that the field that i'm getting to has been taken by a lot of people and most of them remain unemployed until now..
I'm aware that i might face difficulties obtaining a job after my graduation.
but it's not something to be worry at time being.
my interest in computer is more than just getting a job.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
No,I've a lot of time but my brain seems like draining of idea....Can't fucking write well anymore....
moreover,no one read my blog..so what's the point writing without reader huh???
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Working is my priority.I want to gain some experience and $$$ of course.But I'm too choosy,which make me unemployed until now.
I also want to take "Mandarin" class as many employer nowadays emphasizes on it.Speaking more than 2 language is an added advantage.I could learn it for free on the internet,but Dota has restricted me to do so.
Everyday,when I read the newspaper,I'll turn to the "obituary" section.
You must be wondering why the fuck I read that right??Hmm..I just trying my luck,maybe a rich philanthropist has died and he want's to donate all his properties
to the lucky person....who know??hahaha....lame,shame...
Then,I check my mail to see any paid ads,which will earn me $0.01 for each click.I need to click 1000 mail to request the minimum payout,which is $10.Usually,I receive 1-2 ads per day.When will I get my $10??hahaha....